I am inlove with my bff... and he's straight.

"Hi nicole,

how are you? me? im doing alright besides the fact that i want to slash my writs and die like an emo kid... just kidding...

Well i have this best friend, Hes about the same age as me, we hang out almost everywhere, we eat almost anything, we have the same show, shirt, cap size. often times we share a tooth brush (i know that's gross but well...) his mom knows me, and i know his dad. i have a slipper at their house and he has his personalized blanket in my home.

I think we really are the total definition of best friends.

His girlfriend runs to me when they fight, and my ex tells him why we broke up.

He takes care of me when i am sick... and i buy him food after his class.

Then one thing happened, in our school, we had a film viewing, Love of siam... well, i guess most of you guys already know what that movie is all about... i watched it intensely, i even found my self shedding a tear or two at the ending. after the movie my bestfriend joked around me saying that i am inlove with him. we laughed a bit but it made me think...

then it hit me... I am inlove with him.

I am gay i know it, but i never thought i would like my best friend, honestly he is not my type, but i dont know.. ever since that movie i am not able to look him directly in his eyes. all of the people around us including him are getting confused with my actions. He sends me text messages asking me if i am mad or anything to which i do not reply.

Help me nicole... I dont know how to act or what to do...

yours,
Boylover "



Dear boylover,

2 suggestions. If he is straight forget about it. If he is gay then you might have a chance.

First if he is straight, lets face the fact, a straight guy would never love a gay guy, it just goes over the norms of society and nature. gay is to gay as straight is to straight, you may contest all you want but that is the inevitable truth. being gay, we must teach ourselves to move on even if there is nothing to 'move on' about. you are friends, best friends and that's it, nothing more and nothing less. either you want to keep the friendship by reverting back to your normal routine or risk the friendship and admit it to him. 2 things can happen when you tell him the truth, 1 is that he gets mad or grossed out and forgets you totally and 2nd he accepts you for who you are, still remains the same but to a certain limit only, but is still going to be there as your best friend.

Second if he is also gay. Then girl you hit the jackpot, if you both could work this relationship and take it to a higher level then you might have found the one. one thing good about friendships is that it an grow into something much more mutual, i dont want you to expect or anything, but there is still a possibility that he might be from our planet romeo. (if you know what i mean) If you have enough courage and strength to confront him, i would urge you to do so, but what ever decision you might do, just dont regret it and just charge it to experience. no one dies from heart aches or sadness. If he accepts you then great! if he turns you down then good! If he still accepts your friendship, then he is really a friend, if he can't accept you for who you are... then he has some issues of his own.

May the force be with you boylover!


yours truly,

Nicole Richie